[He'd told himself that this would be enough, to just have the contact. Their warmth to quietly cherish where he had none of his own. It was enough for a time, to try to throw the memories he had of Taka and Sumi away. They'd been put to rest by Sypha, so it was enough to pretend like nothing had ever happened.
Some days are better than others. And he'd been fine like this, gasping under Trevor, thinking of nothing else but the two of them like this.
And he feels palms on his wrists, pushing him down--
He tenses, holding his breath, his eyes wide. There's sweat on Alucard's brow, terror in his eyes. All he can think of is what came next after that, silver strands wrapping around him and burning into his skin, tying him and keeping him pinned. The accusation in their faces, the cold preparation they had to raise their swords and kill him after he thought he finally had their care and company.
awww yeah
Some days are better than others. And he'd been fine like this, gasping under Trevor, thinking of nothing else but the two of them like this.
And he feels palms on his wrists, pushing him down--
He tenses, holding his breath, his eyes wide. There's sweat on Alucard's brow, terror in his eyes. All he can think of is what came next after that, silver strands wrapping around him and burning into his skin, tying him and keeping him pinned. The accusation in their faces, the cold preparation they had to raise their swords and kill him after he thought he finally had their care and company.
Alucard can't help how small his voice sounds.]
Stop.